storyofthegirlnextdoor

Out and about.

2009-12-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

aloha people! :)

i finally found out the truth, SILLY BOY.
well, silly boy, u had a good girl but you didn't know how to treat her.

IM STILL HAPPY! ;D

changes.

2009-12-16T08:00:00.000-08:00

my mom talked to me today after her dinner. she questions me and giving me advise on guys. she claims she could read what kind of person nic is. awesome. -.- this is what she said; he is a family guy, a guy that is mature for his age, gentlemen, parents expects more from him.
-.- she loves me being with nic. well, thats good. after that, she questioned me about khalifie. she found out through messages that i sent out to him. -.- thanks mommy. another explanation. i told her how i don't feel anything when imwith him. i only like him as a friend. im totally devoted into nic. that's it. nothing can change that. maybe he is a friend material. and he has girlfriend. obviously, i feel guilty for talking to him. and plus he talks to me more than his girlfriend. i don't want to be that passenger. i don't want to hurt her. i just want to be friends. AND, syimir. im sorry if i have not been listening to you. i know im in the wrong. me and fie are just friends and not more than that. is really sweet to know you care for me so much. i do really love you bestie. now, is like so weird to not have you irritate me 24/7. i know his true colours now. i could see for myself. i just want you to know, im always here for you. please talk to me? :(

2009-10-18T22:57:00.000-07:00

make love not war

hello love. :) currently in love with this song called 'down' by jay sean. is damn

nice song. i guarantee you, you can listen to it, over and over again.

im going town alone later on.:) buy some stuffs. my mom complaining to me bout my brother.

ok i don't have any idea why he so moody nowadays. well, maybe he's having a rough day. :D

YOU KNOW WHAT. i've been a good girl towards nic lately, -.- hahah. maybe i realized something amazing about him. hehe. anw, im looking at my cupboard now, ;/im quite unhappy coz there is mountainous clothes that has not fold up. im so freaking lazy. and my room is in a huge massive mess. ibu gonna kill me, but i think she realized alrdy when she woke me up from my sleep . i love sleeping. another hobby that i love doing it in my daily lives. not happy about it? go jump down from the top of the building. ;D

Madonna , can i be your husband? you're one lady with great voice and cool dancing moves. awesomely 80s babe!!

2009-10-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

NIGHT OUT, BEING STUDIOUS AND WILD.

Today, a day at town from noon till 10plus was amazing. i met a new friend, :) he's so nice and friendly. besides that, i was out with athirah first to study and do some quick touch on some topics, MOST IMPORTANTLY, mathematics :)) hmmm. i encounter my studious moment alrdy. then met the guys at 4pm. merayap with yan, apiz, neng and khalifi :) i couldn't believe myself that we actually walked to somerset then off to dhoby ghaut. FREAKING TIRING.

thirah and me dah sesetengah mampos. and then we still have to walk to bridge.

we walked, talked, walked, sing. we reached in less than 20mins. ;/ finally, get to ease my mind. think about my life, wht has happened and in time to come, how's my life gonna be. i know i think a lot. have to make use of your brain if you bring it along with you right?? :)

left th the place at 8pm, off to anywhere and everywhere, i don't know wth am i talking now. -.-

thirah, khalifi and apiz left early. they don't understand when i say THE NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG i guess. -.- hahaha. k whtever. then came iqbal and one of his friend. telling stories and all. and i went off at 10pm. :)

should i go town agin tmr and get the stuff that i want? YES! :D

2009-10-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

COLOUR YOUR LIFE

school oh school.
boring school, full of mofos and fanatic shits.
anw, school is nothing without your own group of beautiful people.
well, yes, mine has graduated. sad. but, i still have a few others who
brighten up my day. :)

besides school, saw becca on tues?? hahaha. i forgot when i saw her. hahah.
i miss that girl, so young and pretty. hope she's doing fine in her studies and soccer.
speaking of soccer, it's been ages since i last kick the ball. i still remember, me and nic played soccer at the field. gosh, it was super fun, but, tiring. ;p jingjongjing.
i need a new pair of shoe! :( vans or thriller? hmmmmm/

2009-10-17T06:43:00.000-07:00

i feel you in my heart, and i don't even know you.
and now, i got you. :)

2009-10-15T20:24:00.000-07:00

suspicious. suspicious. but im just keeping quiet and play the game. life's a bitch and is not fair. but i have to face it and go through it. eventhough how much it hurts me, you're getting back all the games you fooled me. :) im cunning. my game is freaking cunning. watch me.

ANW, EOY IS IN 2 WEEKS TIME, :(

MUGGING!

be careful of your words, coz is like solving a puzzle, which helps me to recognize who you are.

2009-10-05T04:19:00.000-07:00

i wanna be single lady can? :)

tentu sekali boleh!

2009-09-28T08:31:00.000-07:00

buyers.

WE DO IT A FAST DEAL K. you cn email me at chronical_punk@hotmail.com

or just tag on my tagboard. meet-ups will be at yishun or khatib. thanks.

2009-09-28T08:17:00.000-07:00

topshop tote.wear it few times. still in gd condition. selling at 10dollars SOLD TO ZIRA

shoe size 8/9, wear once. selling at 10dollars.

vest. wear thrice. selling at 10dollars
le coq sportif, never use before. selling at 5dollars

small haversack vintage bag. selling at 5dollars.

SELLING IT ALL AWAY. :D

2009-09-18T23:45:00.000-07:00

ive been fooled for 7mths. let's give me a round of applause. :)))

ANYWAY,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM.

2009-09-12T10:25:00.000-07:00

ifah, bestfriend.

i love you horrr. hahaha. :)

2009-09-09T11:13:00.000-07:00

to whoever it may concern. :)

is okay to share secrets when you build a tight friendship. anything can happen. we share problems, we share our joyous moments, we are there for each other in life and in sports. is not a crime. i know i had a bad past. but i put that aside and refresh myself. now, im stronger than ever. :) it takes a lot of beautiful people to help me and give me hope that i can be a better person and not being the same person again. they watch me not to repeat and dwell on your mistake. they are purrrrrfectly helpful peeps.

thanks guys

u may have grudges againsts me until now, but it doesnt matter.

deep inside, you're still a friend.

2009-09-09T10:43:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU. :( I GUESS. I DNT HOW TO SHOW IT TO YOU.

2009-09-05T11:05:00.001-07:00

MORE ON MY LIVEJOURNAL. :)

ASK PERSONALLY IF YOU WANNA VIEW.

2009-09-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

durrah's surprise birthday party was a success. :) an, jia fa, val and myself kanchong sia on how to make her surprise. but someone have to leak the plan (syimir). hahaha. i enjoyed talking about life, at the same time catch up some gossip with them. WOW, i found who you truly is. i wonder when u want to change. now, I AM CARE LESS ABOUT YOU. maybe i dont care about you. :) im happy and i dnt find why i need to be sad.

after that, have to rush to geylang to meet yan,nurullah and syimir. ifah pestering me to go lepak with her , farah and zuee. gosh. terokcase. so i asked ifah to tag along to geylangand ditched them... sorry...lucky lucky, ben and friends there too. so we go there by bike. :))) i was at wan's bike and i swear it was scaryyy but fun la, laugh laugh all.. ben was hyper cos he bought scrambler and forced me somemore to congrats him. WELL CONGRATS AHMOI! ;D

reached geylang at 9.30pm. treat the bujang lapok ramli burger. geylang was so crowded. -.- left wan,ifah and ben. oopss sorry guys. we GOSSIP, smoke and look around. :) boring uh. then go home at 11pm. :)

2009-09-04T10:07:00.000-07:00

THIS WEEK.

A fucked up week. why? coz i came across a fucked up situation. yes, i face the bloody music. it was hard. all this time i was wasting la. and it's taking me this long to know you. you=someone i dont even know. :( but i believe, everything will be ok. hopefully. i've been giving out chances everytime, but all you do is let me down. i cant take it sometimes. is like my whole world come crashing down again and again. i wish i could turn back time......but what is lack of me? wht does she have that i dont have? damn. is so hard to be okay sometimes, coz deep inside it hurts to know that a friend told me instead of you. fuck it! yes i can pretend to be ok, but you know im not.

i hate to be in this game. is like 2 girls falling for the same guy. i know i shouldnt have come btw you two in the first place. now, it became a drama. and i know deep inside she still loves you and i know how it feels to be hurt. i do care for her feelings.REALLY. i hope she's okay. gosh. i dont really know wht's happening now. i dnt know wht to do. now, i feel like crying over my stupidity. why am i so stupid? why why why?! urggggggggggggggggghhhh.

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life

decision: i couldnt trust you anymore.

whatever you wanna do, just do.

i don't wanna care more neither i wanna care less about you.

im just gonna be there for you but to listen to sorrows.

IN MY HEART, you're a lover, but in my mind, you're a stranger to me now.

so sorry.

2009-08-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

siblings love. WAN, where's yours? hahaha.

love love love.

i just realise spending time with my big brother is not that bad. :) he has cool friends so what am i waiting for. :) in 2 weeks time, he's leaving me. :( im so sad. im gonna miss damn badlyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

2009-08-29T11:59:00.000-07:00

AWESOME.

i had fun with my beautifuls friends at baybeats day 2, :)

Radziman, sorry for not hanging out with you much.

we go buka puasa together tmr ok? :)))

2009-08-23T10:24:00.000-07:00

SKATER BOY :)

there's so much craziness surrounding me,

there's so much things going on and it gets hard to breathe.

when all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me.

you make it real for me.

TODAY.

Had good laugh and a good company.

thanks for everything, you teach my heart to speak. :)

2009-08-22T08:37:00.000-07:00

today; it was scorching hot and the first day of ramadhan. :) 1st day of being holy too coz i pray.lol. :) guess what, is saturday. im nothing if i dont go out. so i did. supposed to study at national library. but end up at arab strt and haji lane. :) taking my time looking at antics bags, and im SO WANNA GET THAT BONIA BAG, is damn old but nice. besides that, i met my old hobby which is making batik. i love batik so much. it really reminds me of me, back in primary school.

anw, farah my livejournal got some freaking ERROR.

I HATE IT NOW. LOL.

to farah, he called me fuckingly awesome girl. :]

i write more on my livejournal but the journal being a shit ass freak.

i wrote my whole conversation down. -.-

i guess, IREALLYHATELIVEJOURNALNOW!

2009-08-21T15:52:00.001-07:00

MOVE TO LIVEJOURNAL ;D

still updating in blogger

2009-08-21T09:22:00.000-07:00

FEELING: GOOD

this week has been hectic for me. i need a break from everything. relationship, studies and sports. i've found out smth that i promise not to say it. for now, im doing well by keeping it low and secretive. :) life has been great so far. met new people in my life. a friendly bunch of them. then, FARAH IS STILL RATED AS MY BEST GFS EVER. best guyfriend is like MIA. i guess that's it. :)

besides that, wednesday, gonna go study with amsyar. then, maybe break fast with famlily.

OHWELL.

gonna be innocent for a month or maybe 2 months. ;/

IM A CHANGED PERSON NOW, no more drama neither lies.

hope this ramadhan i get to learn something.

SELAMAT BERPUASA KEPADA UMAT MUSLIMIN DAN MUSLIMAN.

2009-08-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

radziman :)

a guy who is fun to tok to. kembang tak pasal2 and im greatful to have you in my life. :)

BAYBEATS K??? 29 OGOSSSSSSSSS YAW.

feel different, more alive.

and and IMISSFARAH, :(((

2009-08-16T03:57:00.000-07:00

our summer love, that we hold on to.

Thunder, BOYS LIKE GIRLS

You're voice was the soundtrack of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other?
you'll always be my thunder, and i said
your eyes are the brightest of all the colours
i don't wanna ever love another :(

you're always be my thunder.

imissyou.

2009-08-14T04:05:00.000-07:00

:) joe.

Take time to realize, im by your side

didnt i tell you. i'll hold on to our mini secrets.

2009-08-09T21:42:00.000-07:00

<center>bestfriend forever <3<center>

RED AND WHITE DAY WAS THE MOST fun, annoying, bitchy, irritated day ever.

spend a lot of money, just to buy shoes and a bag. HAIYOH.

ANYWAY, happy national day!

2009-08-08T23:52:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahh! :)
sorry nic.

2009-08-08T12:51:00.000-07:00

boy, i miss the way you smile at me.
I miss your calls at night.
I miss your sulking moments.
I miss 'our' fun.
I miss your marshmallow lips.
I miss you bitting my lips.
I miss cuddle myself into you.
Anw, i do really miss you.

Wht am i supposed to do?
I got a huge problem.

2009-08-07T10:43:00.000-07:00

hello!!! :)

fuck off!
itcy bitchy bicth.

today, went out with eugene. :) went to watch movie, THE HANGOVER. 1 word : damn good. oh thts, two words.-.- anw, i swear is worth watching. we were laughing our ass off man. haha. then we had dinner, at changing appetite at marina square. the food was appetizing and feeling. :) then after that, off bck to home.

to you, im sorry for not meeting you. really am. i didnt mean to hurt you, seriously.
i didnt know you ditched your friends just for me. i wsh i knew earlier.
forgive me will you? :(

CANT WAIT FOR 29 AUG :)
anyone wanna accompany me???
cater to girls only.

2009-08-06T08:28:00.000-07:00

should have worn my fitness mask just now, my face was too tired to even run.
HAD FITNESS FOR 19STRG. -.- oh yes, it was killer. we had 2.4km run, around the track. followed by sprinting for 5m, 10m, 15m. altogether is 15 times, 3 sets. at one moment, i thought im gonna vomit, instead, cherie was the one making noises. haha.. cute sia. after the HUHA, went bck to courts and joined the defenders. it was ok la, didnt do much. Tony was so funny today. hahaha!! the way he said things is so rhetorical.

we did this drill, 3 midfields outside the semi-d, we have to feed into the attackers in blacks, and 2 red defenders try to intercept the ball. it was fun, coz we have to be extremely fast, accurate and FAST. hmm, should i recommend to coach robin??

anw, tmr friday, going out?
YES, with?
EUGENE ANTONIO.
can't wait hubby!

2009-08-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

idiots, my mouth is achingly itchy right now! i have to stop saying vulgarities from today onwards... someone said, " why do you have fucked up life?" i was so pissed and bang, "coz i got fucked up attitude, bitch." i think she thinks i was ok, coz my face never look fucked up when im angry. -.- fuck yeah? Screw this all. I’m just so sick of you. I can’t even begin to say what’s on my mind. It’s all such a big mess I don’t know where to start. So I won’t. I’ll just shut up and sit here and listen because that’s all I ever do and act like nothing’s wrong and that I have nothing to say about what you’re saying, even though you’re being quite hypocritical. Shutting up now.

before that even gonna happen, im in love with boots! omgggg, i want one. look up there.

2009-08-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

fuck yeah kids in shorts.
though it was a bout time this was made. -.-

anyway boy, i love your smile. i'd love to hear pretty little things coming out from you.:) meet again yeah?

and it seems tht i can't sleep. WHYYYYYYYY?????

-.-

I NEED TO CLEAR THIS UP...

2009-08-05T08:55:00.000-07:00

i actually cry with sympathy sometimes. over poor things.
i dont know why, but i can be weird. well, it depends if the weather behaves. i follow the mood of the weather. sad on rainy day, happy on sunny day. WELL, HAPPENS AT TIMES. :/ANW I CAME ACROSS THIS PICTURE. it hurts me. i dunno why. fuck yeah? just hate it. ;/ ok i shall put the drama aside.

OK whatever.y'knw y'knw, i rarely smile nowadays, but when i do it's for other people benefits, not mine. crap.

dear imaginary friend:
People have said they don't like how I've changed, I know I have, but every change I make is for the better and I wish they could see it from my perspective. I'm very shallow, but I can admit that, so I guess I'm better than some. I'm not significant. This isn't a face you'll remember.

RANDOM, i love people speaks French, it sounds pretty.
and and, can i have your lips please? :)

2009-06-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

yesterday, took 3 sticks. goddd. i think im gonna die soon. then played fire with bros. soon, my friends came, and hang out with them at old yishun library.

today's training was rather LONG. -.-firstly, tony tan trained us then we have to warm up for match with AVAULANCHE,goshhhhh. i swear it was tiring gilerrr babi. i played 2 quarters, i put my 100% and it was worth to play as i feel free and professional all of a sudden. HAHAHA. intercepted the ball like doggggggg. even paris hilton dog also lose sia. :)overall, we won 40-23. :D BUT BUT BUT, THE SUCKIEST,FUCKIEST AND SHITTIEST PART IS, i got another match tmr........-----.------- im so dead tired. plus, we're playing under the scorching sun. -.-" hopefully, i survive.

and weird, woke up strangely at the park this morning, thus, it made me late for p6 development in school. how can that happen? whatever it is, IM SAFE.

And to joe, sorry for hanging u up just now, i was shocked coz u broke your freaking voice box. lol. :))))

andandand, imy. what have you been up to?

2009-06-05T00:23:00.000-07:00

i've finally made up my decision. i promise im not gonna cry.it's final.

happy ending.

2009-06-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

today's training at 10am. coach came 30mins late, end up having trg at 10.30am. -.-
during coach's absence, the team camwhore like SHIT. hahaha. got nothing better to do. :) after trg, coach treat us lunch at pizza hut. we talked about life and NETBALL. :/ cant get enough of it. NIC had training :( pity him, had to wake up friggin early for trg and then he off again for his 2nd trg. -.- goshhhh. and and tmr gt 19s trg. im so lazy to go. bt i hv to go. urgghhhh.

RANDOM: mr hockey msged me today. asked me out for a movie. hmmmmmmmmmmmm....

2009-06-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

i wish i could be the GUY.

2009-06-03T08:44:00.000-07:00

i believe that i could love u forever, but it takes two person to believe in this love.

i still love you bby.

today's training was gym and then we had court work with the NL TEAM.
after tht, had a game at night. i swear i couldn't focus at all. i felt like giving up. i felt so hopeless. it feels so shit ass freak. ANYWAY WE LOST TO SRC. hiphip hooray ;D

2009-05-29T05:31:00.000-07:00

ok today was boring. supposed to go to stan's and jiafa's surprise party. but was too lazy. ;/ so i enjoyed 1 quarter of cheesecake that ibu non bought from US, i swear, fucking fattening. but who cares.. and of course, CAMWHORE at home..

2009-05-23T20:38:00.000-07:00

im sorry for being cranky today

im sorry for not being understanding

im sorry for putting you last

im sorry for making you sad

im sorry for ruining your day

im sorry for calling you an idiot

AND IM SORRY FOR MAKING YOU FALLING IN LOVE WITH ME.

you're not the guy that i see everyday in my eye, im just so sorry.

2009-05-23T09:45:00.001-07:00

hello. im happy and let the picture tell you the reason why olrite. :)

OH YES, BEING WITH FRIENDS MAKES YOU FEEL MUCH BETTER. ;D

2009-05-09T11:45:00.001-07:00

what friends for? -,-

2009-05-09T06:36:00.000-07:00

2009-05-09T06:07:00.000-07:00

nah, amek kau!! :) hahaha. my saturday with little sister. :) my angelica.

2009-05-08T23:06:00.000-07:00

it's saturday, and i can't believe im not going out. FUCK.
maybe, i'll do some photograph alone

maybe ask sister to go out with me.

2009-05-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

FASHION INSPIRATION. young brit model, agyness deyn.

flat-chestered and pretty, still attracts young local rocker and indie rock guys..
so girls out there who have a bf who loves to criticize your breast, do not worry, coz there are morons who thinks our boobs brings up ur appearance. well, once again, take agyness as an inspiration. FLAT, BUT LAKU BABE. ;D

'arggggggghhhh!!!!! i love rock, indies and i love fashion! :D '

2009-05-07T04:13:00.000-07:00

probably u should know, that im so sick of sport. well, the good thing is, it keeps u fit and in shape. but the suckiest part is to train everyday and all u do is to move your body physically and TIRED YOURSELF FOR NOTHING.-.- have you ever wonder when's that break gonna be? gosh, it kills me having netball stuck in my life. practically, it took half of my life!! BUT THE BEST PART IS, I GOT FASHION TO KEEP ME ALIVE. FASHION IS LIKE THE REASON I BREATHE, hhahahahah! k craps over. well, i've been working on fashion studies lately. most of my friends said' my designs are cool and nice, but i just need to make it above size 1.' haha. well, im working on that guys.I KNOW I GOT BIG DREAMS. i wanna be famous. i wanna be known by my fashion design. for now, all i need is commitment in my new passion. BUT HOWWWWWWWWWWWW??/ SO HARD TO HANDLE SPORTS, FASHION AND STUDIES. :( I wish i could find a way.

I FOUND YOU.

lover boy :)

2009-05-06T05:36:00.000-07:00

school is boring! school is boring! school is boring!

I HATE SCHOOL LIKE @#%&*!!.

2009-05-03T04:26:00.000-07:00

PARTY WAS FUN-TASTIC. gossip, games, drinking are basically one of our most fun things to do when it comes to party.

GUESS WHT, i was up all night, and im LACK OF SLEEP.

'when i called you, that's when i need you most. but you don't seem to bother bout me.'

2009-05-01T21:09:00.000-07:00

HELLO PUNKS,EMO-LOVERS AND FREE WORLD PPL.

well i know, my blog has been pretty dead lately. well, wht can i say, there's nothing to blog as my past days was boring and lack of enjoyment. -.- anyways, this week is a short week as we only had 4 days of school. and nothing much happening in school. not much of training as our seasons is over.AND GUESS WHAT, coach named me captain for the NL competition. oh gosh.-.- and and, my 2.4km was crap.when i said crap meaning it reach to a critical level when my fitness is really gone to the drain. wht can i say, NO TRAININGS FOR 2 STRGT DAYS. But i managed to pull it off. besides that, i had my 'happenings' with friends at sentosa on friday. :)IT'S FUN AND I MET A NEW FRIEND, named riyad (sorry if i spell it incorrectly) nice meeting you tho. thanks guys for the time we had together under that schorching sun.

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK. GUESS WHT, IM HYPE UP FOR THE PARTAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY at sonsky's place later at nite.i predict is gonna be hell loads of fun. hopefully, it will not get out of hands. :))))))))))))))) LIVE EASY, PARTY HARD PEOPLE.

2009-04-17T22:07:00.000-07:00

I PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR. PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR! :D

met up with the twins, and took a cab to illya's villa.
came bck in the morning. feeling so dizzy. and u won't believe
how much crap i did. it was hell loads of fun. :) since national's over, bad girl attitude is back!

2009-04-10T21:23:00.000-07:00

look at my hair it was super short. :) hahaha.

2009-04-09T08:49:00.000-07:00

today's week is kinda short, due to good friday. and the week passed so fast due to matches. and i feel sooooooo good. :D YOU KNOW WHY? coz we qualified to the semis as we won st margs and nanhua. there's one match to go, hopefully, we beat them. ;s anyway, i went back home with farah and athirah. we walk to cozway together then we go on our seperate ways. as i got bck home, mom called me to go meet her. went for supper and late nite shopping. bought jeans from levis and a top. im so tired now. my head is spinning like a roller coaster. oh gosh.

OK OK, i got some important things to chittychat about. i was reading this particular post from someone's blog. after i read it, i felt super bad and im very sorry. if i knew it from the start, i shouldn't have let myself follow my heart. i've bet your heart is already broken into million pieces after you knew the truth. i didnt know you and ____ had something on. now, i got the facts. IM REALLY SORRY.
omg, im speechless, yes i have nothing to say. -.-
i don't wht im thinking and i don't know whether the decision im making
is correct. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

2009-04-04T07:50:00.000-07:00

went out with claudia and vanessa boon to town, then moved on to city hall to meet eugene. then after tht, went bck home early with mommy. after tht, he called me, asked me if i could meet him for a while. i was like errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....... so i did meet him and left mommy. we tok under the moonlight. it was a beautiful night, we laugh and laugh over our stupid jokes. that moments only last for a while then i gt back home. was super tired. went to bathe, then go online. chat with beautiful ppl. im so tired now,,,,,,,,,, going to sleep soon. NIGHTS NIGHTS.

'when im with him, i am thinking of you'

2009-04-04T07:31:00.000-07:00

SINGAPORE VERY OWN RAPUNZEL.

THE ULTIMATE WEDGIE. HAHAHAH.

FRIDAY, IS THE BEST DAY BECAUSE I'LL GET TO GO HOME. ;D

went for juniors match. they won against MGS. 32-28. :D WELL DONE NUGGETS.
besides that, me, claudia and melody teo also search for the MOST embarrassing moments during the match play.

2009-04-04T06:03:00.000-07:00

gossip girl wannabe. :)

an classmate.

SEPET FRIENDS :D

OH BESTFREINDS.

OUR VERY OWN HIGH CLASS AHLIANS.

GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN.

SYAFIQ SIRAJ :)
AWARDS NIGHT WAS FABULOUS. the celebration filled with bombastic performances. :D

2009-03-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

always love you.

benjamin huns.

bby, i do think of u at sentosa. :)

met new friend too. :) nifah.

today, i went to sentosa with old friends and had surprise bday party by parents and cousins at villa marina. thanks lovelies for the celebration. and bby, look at one of the photo. sweet rite? i know.

2009-03-27T09:30:00.000-07:00

MEET DELWINDER SINGH S/O RANJIT SINGH ;D HAHAHHAHAHAHA

today, i feel rather sad yet happy. i feel happy because i saw my ex bf(DELWINDER). i managed to tok to him for awhile with the help of the idiots(pioneer). but i didnt see him play, as he sprained his bloody ankle before i get my ass there. but anw, well done captain. your team deserved to win. :) after the match, i get myself back home. i was so pissed and tired. i was thinking of someone. i dunno why. it was stuck in my head all the time. gosh.

SAD PART:
why sometimes ppl misjudge me for who i am? why they think that i go for guys who is rich or famous or whtsoever. omg. i swear la, i hate it. SO, WHAT NOW?! aku money face ke pe. u know wht, your words can be hurtful sometimes and ur jokes can be overboard either.and and is good to have self -confidence, but whn it comes to too much self-confidence, it can hurt people's feelings. im not sensitive but im just giving you my opinion. :( im jus sad of what u said to me. maybe u dont realise it, but i do. that's why i was keeping quiet all the time. i think thats how u judge me now huh. is ok. maybe im like that. :(

ANYWAY, I LOVE YOU BF.

2009-03-17T09:03:00.000-07:00

13 MORE DAYS TO GO. and soon im gonna be 16. im legal to go underage party and watch nc16 movies. :) my birthday wish is: to stay _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ with _ _ _. :) (fill in the blanks.)

2009-03-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

today's training was cock. i swear. everybody was so bad mood, i dunno why. anyway, straight after trg, went to causeway. THE MOST BORING MALL OF ALL GREAT TIMES. -.- claudia accompanied me. :) half way walking, my slipper snap! -.-. angry coz i have to spend money. happy coz i get to waste more time searching on smth useful, like that i wont get bored of walking into the same pavement. after i bought my slipper, claudia left me. as she had to meet cheryl. i went in the library and FORCE myself to read books. i know i know i know. i dont look like a bookworm person. but trust me, the weather is friggin HOT!i need a comfort place to sit and cool myself.THEN, jeng jeng jeng! unexpected hottie approached my way. he asked me for my no. so, SOS, I msged gf.outcome, i gave him my no. :Dinteresting,as i found out he knows my ex bf. and happened to be in the same squad in national.

AFTER THE 'HUHA' IN THE LIBRARY.
i went to school with shorts and shirt. so not school dress code.heck lah. after that, I GOT CHASED OUT OF THE CLASS WITH MY ACCOMPLICE, HONG TING. for the same reason, and also for not doing our homework. stupidddddddd teacher!
BUT THE FUN PART IS, WE FREED FROM THE SACHOK. :D

2009-03-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

FOR THE FIRST TIME, my saturday was super boring. so i went out with bff to town. just roam around to search for awards nite dress. i swear, there's nothing nice. but there was one dress that i like, but it was too big for me.-.- ACTUALLY, I BOUGHT MINE READY. i just need another dress for back up. then, we bump into narelle and sam. omg! i swear i didnt even ask them to tag along. so they followed us walking around town. but in the end we decided to go on our seperate ways. :) FINALLY.
after that, we went to meet cheryl and durrah to go catch sonia's match. im so proud of her. she played super well. :) even for that 1 quarter. THEN, go back my ass home at 8plus.currently, feeling so sick now, and missing my boyfriend terribly. :(

2009-03-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

this week.
1. we won zonal's finals against northland. :)
2. finished most of my test.
3. went for boyfriend's semis.
4. had bonding time with family today. :))

ok i was super bored. dunno wht to do. so i went to watch my bf's match all the way at CCAB. angelene was so nice to accompany me. THANKS DARLING. anyway, 1st half was a bit scary as marsiling put in the first goal. but the boys did well for the 2nd half. the shots that were put in was super nice. babyboy played super well and im super proud of him. :D the match end with a score of......urghhh. i forgot. hahaha. but i know. that there were a lot of shots in.

"waiting for your call im sick, call im angry, call im desperate for your voice." RANDOM. imissyou.

saturday night with ken and sonia.

2009-03-07T22:55:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAY, i went out with older people. hahah. kenneth and sonia made my day. we went to play arcade, watch movie called push and went for dinner and 'supper' together. anyway, we played DAYTONA. guess wht, AKU CHAMPION. ;D that was only the first round. sonia was pissed off coz she wasn't on track(lost), so was kenneth, he got bang by me for a couple of times and made his car look like a piece of thrash. hahaha. so we had our second round. :) sonia's treat. and guess wht, MR SEPET was the champion, sonia 2nd and me 3RD!! :( kenneth must have used my skills to apply to his car. asshole. hahahahah. IS OKAY. WE WILL SOON MEET AGAIN AND HAVE A RE-MATCH. ok ok ok. enough bout the daytona.ANYWAY, the movie called 'push' was a good movie. i enjoyed watching it with them. is a bit complicated yet interesting movie as differnt people has differnt powers. ok, shall not tok much bout it, GO WATCH YOURSELF IF U INTERESTED TO KNOW MORE BOUT THE MOVIE. :D THANKS PAKCIK CHINA MAN AND GERAGOK WOMAN FOR YTD'S. I LOVE U GUYS.

bloody sunday.

2009-03-07T22:26:00.000-08:00

im fucking angry with my parents! i swear they are pissing me off like shit. they think im a piece of thrash that they can just throw out their anger at. and they think i fucking like them screaming at each other. bunch of assholes. i swear they dont know how to show good moral values to me! cheeseburger! call themselves PARENTS. sometimes i wish i could live like a normal life. i wish im with dad now, with nice life. living with u guys is like suffering u know. one day, you will see me walking out that door and never come bck again. you make me feel like a moron at home. FUCK IT!

[center]GET OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE, COZ I NEED A BLOODY SPACE[center]

NSL

2009-02-28T07:41:00.000-08:00

PICTURES OF TODAY'S.

to farah and eugene, thanks for making my day today. i love you guys
alot. :)

ONE AND ONLY BESTFRIEND.

2009-02-27T09:14:00.000-08:00

you know what, i miss those fun days.we shared a lot of fun moments. from stupid to good things, there's always u and me. we come in package u see.

<

thanks for everything.

jeng jeng jeng.

2009-02-27T06:16:00.000-08:00

TODAY'S WEEK.
1. i felt like a total idiot.
2. i miss bff!
3. got into 19s :)
4. late for trg!
5. so many hwks.
6. I SAW RAINBOWS!

ok, this week has been really hectic. i dont know how i cope it, but i did. :)
i dont know what's up with me nowadays. i miss my dad, i kinda fight with the people i love so much. cheesekebabstick. maybe i don't meant to live in this world. sometimes, i feel like running away from all this... GOD, PLS HELP ME.

valentine's day

2009-02-14T04:42:00.000-08:00

had match today morning till late noon. boyfriend and his friends came to watch. THANKS FOR COMING. overall, we won all the games. hopefully, tmr we stay titled as champions. anyway, today i celebrated my valentine's day with sayang. starting was quite cock, but it turned out to be sweet and nice. OMG. i miss you! :)

O.O -.- O.O

2009-02-07T06:25:00.000-08:00

070209

tired. sleepy. sick. omg. i cant believe i went out today. but it was worth it. i kinda enjoyed it. :) coz the soccer boys made my day by doing STUPID STUFFS, and not forgetting, vanessa,claud and hong ting. the most fun peeps to hang out with. thanks loves :)

last sunday

bestfriend

2009-01-26T20:12:00.001-08:00

claudia, i know i have been giving you a very hard time to accept the fact that u loves vivern. i dowan to lose my friendship because of that, is your happiness (i think). as your best friend, i must support you in this even though i dont like him that much. but, sometimes, i wonder. do you still loves him? i know he is distance away from us, but, is this the reason why u chose my bro, just to forget bout this?

anw, i love you asshole.

FUN.

2009-01-26T07:53:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS CHINESE NEW YEAR, i would like to wish all fellows china man and woman also known as the -.-, to have a happy lunar new year with your loved ones. :)

i spent my CNY with claudia's fam. had steamboat dinner. and some ppl had to eat pork in front of me. hahaha. im ok with tht. wanted to drink, but GOD told to me not to.. so I didnt and be an angel.. i miss boyfriend so much, was thinking bout him throughout the party. k nvmd. besides that, i miss FARAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

saturday night fever.

2009-01-24T06:40:00.000-08:00

peaktures of today's. :)

hello world.

school was boring. as usual. k forget school, and let's talk about my day with my beauty-fool friends.

today, went out with the soccer boys and netballers at city hall. not as fun as last time. it was pure boring. BUT, shopping with claud really rescue me. haha. bought myself a ripcurl bag from the outlet itself and a painting hat from fourskin. and claudy also bought her stuffs there. after shopping, all of us went for dinner together. we had pizza. some of them had to go back early. -.- boringgggg.. then left like me, claud and a few others.and and and you know wht, there's this girl that syimir brought along. walao! she's my mortal enemy on court lah. her face really pollute my eyeballs u know. hahaha. "i was like whttttt, WARDAH!" BUT SHE'S OKAY LAH SOMEHOW EH. anw, after we had our dinner, we bounce ourselves to esplanade and LEPAK, just like the mats and the minahs. hahah. we camwhore and all. tok about life and some shit asssssssssss. but still, it was boring. coz most of them mute themselves, except for me, claud, joel and fizzy.

anyway, i miss boyfriend very much.
i love you baby. :)

i had bad day yet a fun day.

2009-01-10T09:09:00.000-08:00

went to town first to grab lunch and all, gave claudia her present, KINDA gave her a shocked. ;D i bought her GUESS WALLET AND BYSI'S TOP.i know she needs it so badly. im happy that she likes it. then went to walk arnd, looking at the leather bags at takashimaya. then accompanied claud garb her lunch at mcs then grab mine at auntie's anne,bought pretzel thingy. hmmm, yummy! after that, treat her dessert at gelare. :D see, im nice okay. i love treating people. :) ok anyway, supposedly, we must meet the soccer morons at cityhall, but when we in the bus otw to city hall, the morons were back at town. haiyoh. so we forget bout them and stick to our own plan. bought a pair of shoes at royal. happy!!! of course. so i can have a theme in school. :) hahah. then, met up vivern.went to raffles city. wanted to buy this leopard skinny jeans with zip at the side at river island, sadly, they dun have my size. -.- urrrgggghhhh. angry!!!! out of stock. but nvmd, come bck next week then. vivern decided to treat us dinner. so we went carl's jr. shared a burger with claud coz the burger is huge. i cant possibly finish myself. after eating, both me and claud felt like vomiting. i swear, is like the food hanging at my throat area. luckily, i managed to control myself.after we walked our feet off, we sat by the bay. took pictures!!!! yeah!!! hahaha. camwhoring with them was fun. we even took picture at the padang. standard lah, we kinda high, so we make a fool out of ourselves everywhere. not to mention, vivern oso cracked a lot of jokes. nonsense all come out. overall, i had fun today. thanks u two!

im tired now, had my medicine taken.
off to bed now, byeeee and nights! :)

1st week of school.

2009-01-09T07:10:00.000-08:00

MACAM BABI, u know why. let me list out all the bad things that happen first.
1. got scolding for clothes
2. forgot to bring PILLOW AND KEYS.
3. got HOMEWORKS FOR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
4. sort of fight with bestie..
5. training sucks as usual.
6. freshmen pissing me off

k DONE.

the good part now:
1.got new roomie and bang matesssss. FUN PEOPLE.
2.upgraded to level 7 which is windy :)SYIOK U KNOW.

and guess wht mr geography is superrr hot.... the only class im looking forward to go.

hahahah, anw, i skip trg today, had to do IC. i know, im like slow. but who cares.
then when shopping with mommy. go to plaza singapura go buy perfumes and pay bills. then off to town. bought paris hilton bag and mom bought some tocasno bag and LV bag.. then off to chinatown, bought claudia's family the abalone thingy for chinese new year. is damn nice u know.pls try. hahaha. AND GUESS WHT, i wore school uniform for a day just now. how disgusting is that.

k anw, going to sleep nowww. byeeeee:)

SILAS!

2009-01-03T09:24:00.000-08:00

HAD CONVERSATION WITH MY OLD FLAME.

yeah true,
silasss says:
shawallah you all like got musclessssssss ahhhhh !
silasss says:
haha,
silasss says:
do weight right ? confirm,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
SHAWALLAH. says:
yalah.
SHAWALLAH. says:
which is ugly lahhhh
SHAWALLAH. says:
rightttt?
silasss says:
hahaha,
silasss says:
no !?
silasss says:
its not,
silasss says:
because i carry them myself, so yeah, we're in the same boat,
silasss says:
hahaha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
SHAWALLAH. says:
ok
SHAWALLAH. says:
thanks for making me feel better,
SHAWALLAH. says:
and u know wht, ur hair sux
SHAWALLAH. says:
why did u cut?
SHAWALLAH. says:
haha
SHAWALLAH. says:
u look cuter with ur hair much more longer
silasss says:
i know,
silasss says:
you want to know something,
silasss says:
i 1st day go school kan,
silasss says:
like a little long ahh,
silasss says:
like got fringe then back i like keep sikit,
silasss says:
then tepi also just clear the eyes,
silasss says:
wahh idiot yknow this new principal,
silasss says:
he walk past my class, then he check check all the hair,w
silasss says:
wahh basket, then mine kene,
silasss says:
then i 10 mins protest, no use,
silasss says:
haha,
silasss says:
the worst my fringe and sideburn all he cut,
silasss says:
tsk tsk tsk ,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
SHAWALLAH. says:
no wonder, your hair look like chicken backside
SHAWALLAH. says:
but no worries
SHAWALLAH. says:
is not that worst
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahaha
silasss says:
ahh then got new rule, who lie down in class, is considered rude towards the teacher, caning,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
SHAWALLAH. says:
wtf!
silasss says:
good school, good principal
SHAWALLAH. says:
my school rocks, u tired u can sleep
SHAWALLAH. says:
then after school make up for the lessom
SHAWALLAH. says:
lesson*
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahaha
silasss says:
wahhhhhhhh,
silasss says:
ehh power ahh,
silasss says:
like shit no hockey in sport school,
SHAWALLAH. says:
yesss,
silasss says:
if not, i tired, i sleep, i wont go for make up lesson
SHAWALLAH. says:
precisely, hahaha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
SHAWALLAH. says:
loser lah u.
SHAWALLAH. says:
they also look at disciplinary
SHAWALLAH. says:
athletes must have discipline
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahaha
SHAWALLAH. says:
u know wht, i am the most WANTED kid in sch
SHAWALLAH. says:
coz i love breakingthe rules
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
silasss says:
hahaha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
but they cant expelled me, coz my sports and studies, im doing so good
silasss says:
in terms of boys also
silasss says:
right ?
silasss says:
hahaha.
silasss says:
shawallah seyy ^_^
silasss says:
haha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah,
SHAWALLAH. says:
no lah.
SHAWALLAH. says:
is damn good lah, i mean, at least im known to be famous in smth stupid
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahah
silasss says:
hahaha,
silasss says:
nevermind lahh,
silasss says:
haha,
silasss says:
but she's famous with guys also ,
silasss says:
haha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahah
SHAWALLAH. says:
wait. the she u referring to who?
silasss says:
shawallahhhhhhhhhhh,
silasss says:
haha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahahha
SHAWALLAH. says:
whtever.
SHAWALLAH. says:
are u taking o's or thru train to TP?
silasss says:
N.
silasss says:
silas ader bodoh sikit,
silasss says:
hahaha,
SHAWALLAH. says:
HAHAH,
silasss says:
ehh i talk to you next time ahh,
silasss says:
now liverpool playing
SHAWALLAH. says:
you're not stupid.
silasss says:
okay bye !
SHAWALLAH. says:
hahaha
SHAWALLAH. says:
ok
silasss says:
takecare hor hor hor,
silasss says:
ily,
SHAWALLAH. says:
tc nights
SHAWALLAH. says:
ilyt

JONATHAN NICHOLAS SURAWOJOYO.

2009-01-03T00:08:00.000-08:00

im falling in love with this guy, he's indo/dutch. im scared to love him and to be with him.i just dont want to associate with drug dealers and thugs.YOU KNOW WHT I MEAN. i just cant see myself to see the black mark in me.one thing bout me, im easy to get influence by people.so if i be with u, my whole life will be with u and your friends. and u know wht kind of people they are right.

u see, we live in two different worlds. u are everyone's dream,internationally and local. but im just a girl next door. im not under the spotlight like you. IT FEELS WEIRD TO BE WITH YOU, WALKING WITH YOU AND ALL.i cant stand ppl staring at us. sometimes i feel like dig out their eyeballs.i think in their eye, they see us, like u the beauty and im the beast. and im sorry to keep u waiting. im just not ready to be with someone yet. i know u never know this but i think i have no guts to say this straight to your face, i really do love and care for you.u really make me feel that im special.thanks.as for now, im just hoping u change to be a better person ..

see u on sunday, meet u at the rooftop. :))

SHOULD I GIVE LOVE ANOTHER TRY?

HELLO 2009, goodbye 2008

2008-12-31T11:31:00.000-08:00

firstly, i would like to say that 2008 has been a good year yet sad year for me, as u know, i have to handle my break up situation in the middle of my major module. it was hard to focus, but, i got my friends and family to support me all the way. ;) thanks u guys. hopefully, 2009 will be a good year for me and everyone in the planet. ;)

my day started off at claudia's place. stayed over her house. hahah. had fun disturbing her and all. whtever. ok anyway, went to meet the soccer guys at cityhall mrt station before we went to the bowling alley.met up at 2pm. and guess wht, THE ORGANIZER CAME LATE.-.- so much for punctuality. hahaha.anyway, i didnt play bowling, wasnt at my party mood yet. i just watch them play, i see talent in them. only SOME of them. hahaha. some of them only expert in putting the bowling ball at the drain. hahah. then, supposed to watch movie at city hall, but some of them wanna watch at cineleisure. oh yesssss, we have to travel to town. -.- leceh i know. in the end , i never watch, coz i need accompany bestie to go buy his shoe. :) just being a good friend. then, around 7plus, we bounce ourselves back to cityhall. countdown there. met durrah at mcs. happy sia, see her. hahaha. can kacau her n all. then we went up to rooftop, meet others. the guys were jerks as usual. disturb newcomer only. hahaha. sonia arrived at 10PLUS! so much for meeting at 9pm. hahaha. then went downstairs and celebrate new year with aunty tania,claudia,sonia and durrah. I CRIED. 2009 is finally here, and is my last year with claudia. :( and and and. the fireworks was beauty-fool. i enjoyed it. hahahah, i was so happy i get to enjoy with the correct ppl. :) thanks u guys for making the celebration possible. :)(durrah,sonia and claudia and of coz aunty tania)

and guess wht, i discoverd smth. :) durrah go hyper when she drinks coke. u never wanna see her hyper-ness. like gila punya org. nolah, jokin. she just canot stop laughing. so ppl, who knows durrah, pls keep the coke away from her. u can go crazy with her if she drinks it. :)

if,u,durrah happen to read this, tag pls :) hahaha
tmr, trg with me and sonia ok. see you in woodlands. :)

partayyyy :)

2008-12-29T09:07:00.000-08:00

had training today. GYM. :( wasnt that tiring. only few seniors came. after trg, went back home. had some rest before going for the partay at downtown east chalet.went with hannah and claudia. :) the fun and sociable people. it was farhan's 18th birtday (claudia's uncle) hahahah. he is so cute, good looking but short -.- sadly. haha. the party was boring at the starting. but it turned out fun when there's games and all.plus there's hot guyssssssss. super duper hot okeh. before i touch on the game part, i would like to tok about the food. :D i swear, if u eat the chicken, u might get stomach ache after that. is like overcooked and a bit raw at the inner part.hahaah. but the satay was nice. the cakes too. :D k, now i tok about the game. is the part which i most enjoyed. we played the match mate game.this is how it works. we have to search our mate by listening to their voices and before that everyone was blind folded and have to wear animal masks..oh yarh, we also need to recognised the voice of our mate. we also had to partner up with the opposite sex, but there's gays too, as there's not enough girls. hahaaha. coz some minah not enthu. what do u expect MINAHS WHAT. BACK TO THE GAME. everytime, my pair got last coz i dont know how a raindeer sounds like. hahaha. it was funny. i tried all sorts of sound. and i swear the people watchin us play the game thinks we look like fools. hahaha.AND AND AND AND, i kinda attracted to this "green guy". not sociable but hot. :D was looking at each other the whole time while the others was playing twister. OH MY GOD, im like totally drooling over him lahhhh. k k. enough bout guys, hahaha. ANYWAY, me and claudia left earlier, to meet up boon han and syafiq. me and claudia thinks that syafiq cute but sadly, is boon han's girlfriend. :( he kinda bapok, but when he walks, fuyyyooooh, like gangster. hahaha. then we chao at around 11plus and took the last train home.

im tired now, but still got like 1 energy bar left to blog bout today.
going to sleep now. tomorrow got COURTWORK. ;( shit. have to wake up freaking early.

enjoy the photos, more photos will be upload tmr :)

anyway gdnight :)

the geragok x'mas

2008-12-28T06:00:00.000-08:00

CLAUDIA'S X'MAS PARTY WAS A BLAST! hahah. it turned fun yet dramatic. but the ending was sucky for BOTH OF US.i wish i could turn back time.

met durrah a lil bit early to buy some stuff. then meet up, simaan and yuanling and firman at the station.hahaha. anyway, arrived at around 7plus. sit and tok for a while and at the same time, wait for more visitors to come. then we indulged ourselves with food. duhhhhh. of coz is food. hahah. the food was nice and delicious. oh my, why am i describing the food and all.i think because im hungry right now.. -.- ok anyway, after we filled our stomach with macoroni and cheese, we played charades and the "i never" game. it was fun. i kinda drink a bit of achohol coz they out of coke. AND I JUST PRAYED TO GOD FOR THE BETTER OF ME YTD AND END UP STILL LIKE SHIT, -.- alah fuck lah. hahha. im a bad muslim anyway. bad and mean one. did i mention wild too?

Most of us stayed over at the house. we tok, play wrestling, make noise. AND ruben's gf drank too much of achohol until she vomitted at the staircase, i swear, u wouldnt wanna see the crap. is like ewwwwwwwwwwwwww. and plus, got this drama mama situation happened. which i dowan to eloborate on that part. wht i know, i was angry and shocked. and practically, half of us is half asleep. i was like one of them. sadly, SOMEONE HAVE TO BE HYPER, AND IT HAPPENS TO BE, CHINA MAN. he was like the paparazzi in the house. taking unglam photos of us and all. and taking away my pillow each time i wanna sleep. so that i stay awake., -.- watch out china man. watch out, i kill u the next time u being a pain in the ass, HAHAHA. joking. k lame. overall, i had wonderful x'mas with my friends. :) thanks guys for the wonderful 1 day package x'mas.

to claudia and sonia, this is the best x'mas gathering ever. love u guys loads.

modelling

2008-12-26T03:45:00.000-08:00

another boring day. just got back from hospital. hooorayyy. its a baby gay. hahah. no lah. a girl. she's like an angel. so cuteee. congrats cik rose. :D

OK ENOUGH BOUT THE HAPPY MOMENT.
now, let's tok bout tmr. oh yeah, tomorrow is claudia's christmas party and im not yet collected her present. -,- im such a bad friend. OMG. besides that, i have not decided on wht to wear. they(sonia and claudia) say to wear casual. BUT, all my life i have been wearing nice clothes to people's house. meaning, i wear smth ABOVE CASUAL. i need tips for this casual thing. SOS! help please? :( k that one i settle it later, but now, i need to to get myself in the modelling mood. -_-

CHEESEKEBABSTICK,this modelling shit is giving me headaches.

can u even believe that i gt this job ytd and have to work tmr? what kind of logic is that? hello, i gt party to attend tmr. but the thing is in the morning but still i gt chinese class to go. oh damn it. tmr i will just dieeeee if my energy bar left one for the party. unless i skip chinese lesson? mom will just screw me.

ANYWAY, im currently in love with agyness deyn. ALL TIME FASHION INSPIRATION. :D i know she's FLAT, but still she can make it in life by being a model. to all those ladies who is flat-chested and interested in modelling, do not worry bout your chest problem. if agyness can make it for modelling, why nt you? :) so be inspired. :)

AGYNESS DEYN.

x'mas with the non-muslim and muslim.

2008-12-25T08:23:00.000-08:00

another boring day with family (dad's side). had family dinner. trying my best to get away from grandma but then she saw me. she complimented about my outfit. :) for the first time. THANKS GRANDMA. was hoping she dont nag. after the whole family gathered, we indulged ourselves with western food. then comes the desert.which is so so feeling. :)oh yeah, i also got a job on the spot. hired by my aunty. i was given a job that i hate the most,modelling for RH COLLECTION.but i need money so badly so i can dont depend much on anyone. so i accept it. :) havent tell claudia bout this yet, ive bet she will freak out lah.. i kinda left early without no one knowing. hahaha. because after dinner, there will be some entertainment. and i know is gonna be fucking boring. the last time i went for the gathering, got this old fucking pianist playing quite rather slow songs which i kinda hate it. i had to bear myself listening to it. i swear i can rot and die on the spot.

Everything took me around 1hour+++, spending christmas with my dad's side. i swear it was the worst gathering ever. and OMG, ORCHARD WAS EFFING CROWDED!

IM THE B.

2008-12-25T03:37:00.000-08:00

WELL WELL WELL, school is starting in like 10 DAYS time. and im not ready to start a new chapter of my life. How can i start? im not yet bought my new shoes. new bag and even school books. how terrible is that? maybe i should start buying my school things next week. so i wont feel incomplete.

ANYWAY, i have LONG waited for HOT NEWS from people.my ears is becoming dusty. but then, there's one.:)not hot news,but i think is a rather akward and unexpected news. LET'S SAY, WHITE TIGER AND COOKIE MONSTER. who are they? why they call themselves using nameS from a carnivore animal and sesame streets? and what connection they have? well i know everything bout them. :) hope u guys last long. you know, i thought she would be with someone that is younger than her. but ooopsss, the bitch was wrong.;] see you guys in next year class.

i love making people's life miserable if they mess me up. I WILL RUIN THEIR INNOCENCE LIFE TERRIBLY. I WILL HAUNT YOU NON-STOP like how i did to her(BIGGEST WHITE LOOKING TOAD FISH).

now, let's talk about the break ups and the MIA people.

IM STILL WONDERING, where is that soccer babe went to? zetti,zetti,zetti. i think she is really running away from her problems.

BESIDES THAT, i think most couples going on strong. keep it up. :D last long.
as for me, i know i just broke up with this guy within 4 days. sorry to say this, but i just cant be with u if i need to pretend to love you. i still cant get him off my mind. man, i need to learn stop being a bitch for once. but i cant help it. is in the blood.

COKE,FOOD AND THE SUNNY BEACH.

2008-12-23T09:13:00.000-08:00

angie and claudia

ah ling and simaan

angie and afiq

me :D

ME AND ANGIE

claudia and me.

group foto ;)

netballers :D

US, LEPAKING.

OUR soccer hunks. spot him durrah :)

aloha! today,the sec 3 netballers and soccer hunks, plus a triathlete bounce ourselves to sentosa. :) supposed to meet at 1pm SHARP, but some PEOPLE had to be late. -,- hahaha. after everyone gathered, we head straight to the sunny beach. the sad and terrible part is that we stop ourselves at siloso beach, upon knowing there's some construction shit is happening there. so there's space limited.thanks to syimir -,- for making us stop there.thinking of moving to pahlawan, but was too tired and lazy to walk back to the trem thingy. but lucky lucky, we found a spot under the hut, right next to this SEX restaurant. i was scared at the same time, as there's passing clouds and i cant afford to get sick again if it starts to rain and also, dowan to spoilt the fun. after everyone change into their wetsuit, we dump ourselves in the sea. we started off playing monkey, in the sea. sadly, the girls had to be the monkey while the boys rules! i swear we look like an idiot. is like super hard to swim and catch up with the speed of the ball moving. i thought we will become monkey forever but GOD send me my heroin. :))))) Miss claudia save the day, she intercepted the ball and finally the girls turn to rule. HAHAAHAH. after that, everybody had thier free flow of doing their own stuff. we took pictures, we sun-tanning. we P.I.M.P each others body with sand -,-. i swear, we make fake boobs on hafiz's chest. look nice on him sia..hahaha.then, we sat by the sea and feel the waves.there's oso some idiotsssssss.they had to spoilt the moment of enjoying the sun and the waves by throwing a lump of damp sand. -,-the sand went into my mouth sia. it taste like sand....duhhhh. yukssss! i curse the person then he knows. the fun part, is the TOUCH RUGBY! mixture of boys and girls. hahaha. everyone had fun. sadly, my team lost! referee being an asshole as usual. hahah. joking. after the sun tan and all the fun at the beach, we had our dinner at banquet then lepak at the roof top. toking bout life, disturbing each other and all.FARIQ HAD TO DISTURB ME WHEN MY MOOD IS LIKE "URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH" thanks uh. overall, i had fun-tastic day today. thanks to the beauty-fool friends i have. :D

NEXT, bowling and movies. :) hafiz the organizer. :D

2009.

2008-12-20T22:51:00.000-08:00

2009 IS NEARING.and there's so many things that i would want to see a change in my life.

1) i wish to be a good and discipline netballer.
2) i wish to have a good results in academics.
3) i wish to be somebody that is known.
4) i wish to forget about him.
5) i wish to be a better person, and leave the wildness in me.

lastly, i wish i to have a happy ending for 2009. :]

OUT AGAIN.

2008-12-20T08:50:00.000-08:00

FOTO-FOTONYA.

me, ah boon and claudia

shawallah and claudia

charlie's angel

vanessa looks like maid or maybe the dutch lady

tiredddd me and claungy

went out with vannessa, claud, sonia and durrah. poor durrah, she was sick. get well soon hunneh!anyway, today is a fun yet boring day. hahaha. both occured at different timings. the fun part is that we had good dinner at SOUR PUSS restaurant at the colours by the bay. the chef also made us wait for 30 mins for our food. -,- which is really irritating. i can see the restaurant losing alot of customer. but we stayed on, coz we pity them and lazy to move our ass off the seat. before that, we also played lame games but it turned out fun :D we went up to esplanade rooftop and played the alpahabets game.i dunno how to explain the game, but its fun. half way, red ants bite my butt.-,- pain siaaaaaaa. hahahah. my agenda today was to get a dress from forever 21. sadly, got no forever 21 at marina. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! idiot. but, i did get smth from river island. at least i dont got home with empty handed rite? hahahah.

RANDOM. is it wrong to have a fling when u know u still love your ex that u had relationship for a year ?

FAMILY.

2008-12-19T06:35:00.000-08:00

PHOTOS OF TODAY/

my angels.

group foto

he was like" which one more sepet?"

group foto again

gayyyyyyyy

she loves toyssssssssss

QUOTE OF THE DAY: whenever im out with young people, makes me look young too. (ibu said)

many people think that my mom doesnt look old but young. whenever i walk with her, people would think im her sibling. -,- you know, she's my big sis and all. wht the hell. they will be shock if they know she's my mother. anyway, me, ibu, lil sis and brothers went out together to catch a movie at cathay and do a bit of shopping at causeway. and at the same time, we celebrated siti rasyidah's birthday ;D BEFORE WE WATCH THE MOVIE, we killed our time, shopping around the mall. i didnt do much shopping but mom and sis did. and oh my, i saw this guess handbag at metro. it was gorgeous! i wanted to buy bt then i realised i have too many handbag at home. so then, i bought shades and eyeliner for myself. -_- after the shopping and stuffs, we went up to cineplex to watch the movie called 'cicakman'. it was malay movie. a comedy. it was a good movie and i can see a wide smile on their faces after the movie ended, which tells me they enjoyed it. :D after the movie, we went back home. im soooo tiredddd now. but who cares...

oh my god, i currently in love with the song called DECODE by paramore. it is superrrr nice.. you should listen. and tomorrow is another day for me to get my ass out of the house to go shopping with the girls(durrah,sonia and claudia). NOW I HAVE TO SEARCH FOR CLOTHES TO WEAR. WHAT SHOULD I WEAR??????????????

BUSY. NIGHT.

2008-12-14T10:19:00.000-08:00

my buttock all aching, due to ytd cycling from east coast to changi. total, we cycled for 30km. i swear it was fitness boss. hahaha, but i did enjoy the fun with 17s :) today, i went out with buddy, syimir. oh my, i miss him alot lah. after that i went off early, coz i was super duper tired. after i got myself bck home, i switch on my comp and stuck there untill nearly 12am. obviously lah, i bathe before that. then went out with mr vivern and abang. ok, they made my day. we chilled at mcs. the fattening fast food. we sing we eat we laugh out loud like nobody's business. we got nth to do but make disaster in there. AND OH YES, I ALMOST FORGET. got this guy i saw him for numerous time. he's been stalking me for quite sometime and his my bro's friend lil brother's friend. GET IT? hahaha. anyway, i ENVY his style n all. he's good looking and purrrr-fect. he's malay and definitely nt matrep. everytime i see him behind me, tracking me till i reach home. k nvmd, shall wait till he ask me out or smth. i hope HE doesn't see this. :s

PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOADED TOMORROW.

IM NOT INSANE!

2008-12-12T00:42:00.000-08:00

MY FUTURE HUSBANDDDDDDDDDD...

CURRENTLY, feeling like throwing my panty and bra at them if the next time they play in singapore. hahaha. OH MY, I GO CRAZY FOR THEM. i wish i could be mrs vengeance and gates. hope they come again.... :)))

ANYWAY, im going out with ruben and hykel later at nite. hopefully, they make my day after a disastrous night ytd. (dont wish to tell the story) -,-

A NIGHT OUT WITH JASON MRAZ :P

2008-12-10T08:18:00.000-08:00

pictures ;D

I CAME BACK HOME AT AROUND 9AM.

was so tired and all. GOTHAM was fun :)went with a bunch of beautiful friends. BESIDES THAT. today, went out with faizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. :D hahaha. although im tired, im still in the mood of going out. went to search for stuff at town then off to city hall to grab dinner.

i saw tiqsy too :) pretty ready seh.

ANYWAY, after dinner, we went to snap pictures and all. we sat by the bay and tell storiessssssss. oh yeah, then gt this performing arts festival, mostly kids and teenagers were the participants. the performance was marvellous. i enjoyed the ballroom dancing the most. the way i look at them sway to the right and to the left makes me wants boogie woogie. hahaha. then we went to the roof top. WOW. the view is BEAUTY-FOOL. if only i gt a boyfriend, i will bring him up there.

FAIZ, WE GO PANCING NEXT TIME OKEH?(you know what i mean)

hahaha. came back nearly 11pm. wash up then come online. chittychitty bang bang with durrah and a few others. hahaha. toking crap and shit. AND DURRAH, PLS TAG BEFORE LEAVE. :D
THANK YOU SMALL GIRL!

GONE.

2008-12-08T07:38:00.000-08:00

What will I do if I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to, and who will I be
Now that we are apart, am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see that I need you here with me?

im still loving u like before.

IYSC games.

2008-12-06T08:10:00.000-08:00

PICTURES OF IYSC.

NETBALL. juniors vs seniors.

OKAY,GK, ME LOVE <3

meet the african guys.

from left: chase, sniky and danny. ;D

GROUP FOTO. (EHEM):)

okay, the IYSC GAMES wasnt what i expected. HAHAHA. for netball, the girls did quite well. soccer worst. table-tennis,i have no idea about the results. hahaha. overall, i enjoy killing my time in school from morning till late noon.. -,- . and guess what, see there's one pic of a girl with short hair(2nd picture). thats AMY. i dunno whether she is a lesbo or whattt, but im currently drooling over her. hahaha.
while i was watching the soccer match, she came and sat 1 row below me and start to lean againts my legs. hahaha. i felt uncomfortable at first coz i dunno how it feels to be a lesbian(MY FIRST TIME) and trust me, she is just an eye candy, coz i know, being a lesbo is a big sin.. but i did try. LOL. and i had nice conversational with her. :D besides that, claudia intro me to her bunch of south african friends. at first, i find them very arrogant and all. after much explanation bout their background from claudia, i involved myself in the "fun". i did talk to them. they are funny at times. but nt danny, he always trying his best to be quiet. so people might think he's cool. BUT HELLO, I DUN THINK BEING QUIET IS A NEW THING TO GET YOUR IMAGE UP. lol -,- and there's this guy named sniky(i think), we played car racing with each other and i totally kicked his ass. hahaha. he ask for a re-match. maybe next time when i see u in heaven or smth. besides that, I MISS SYIMIR, AND FINALLY I GET THE CHANCE TO TOK TO HIM. and IM STILL MISSING YOU BUDDY.

BTW, I TURNED CROOKED WHEN SHE'S AROUND ;)(when im in malaysia)

BACK.

2008-12-05T06:14:00.000-08:00

ok perth was OKAY.;D

on saturday.
we depart there and reach at around 4plus. weather was kinda cold. and my skin is very sensitive towards the climate. pores were produced on my skin and was unhappy about it. -,- hahaha.

on sunday.
the team went shopping. yes i know, shopping supposed to be like the end of the trip but ours was fun first then comes the boring part. hahaha.it was fun to shop there as the price there are reasonable.

ON MONDAY.
we had match againsts aranmore1 and warwick.

ON TUESDAY.
we had match with aranmore2 and darling range.

ON WEDNESDAY.
went back singapore. i must say, it was a tiring trip. hahaha. but overall, i enjoyed everything. the food, the shopping and the games. ;D

YOHARRRR!

2008-11-28T14:18:00.000-08:00

TO ALL THE NETBALLERS: GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR ICC DANCE AND IYSC COMP. I KNOW YOU GUYS BEAT THEIR ASS VERY WELL. BON VOYAGE! ;D

BURNT OUT

2008-11-26T07:31:00.000-08:00

i got a complaint to make :/ see those pictures up there. i look super tan, not really super lah and i got huge PIMPLE on my forehead(if u cannot spot IT ,smth wrong with you). my whole image is having a MAJOR breakdown. urgggggggggggghhhhhh!!! i can't go australia with this problems. kids might just run away when they see me. ;/ and i wont be attractive for lesbo to look at. choy! must get this problem settle by tmr.

BESIDES THAT, we had trg with n'tl coach ytd. 1 word : FUN. after that had some umpiring shit. most of us couldn't even bother to lend our ears to the "teachers". COZ WE WERE TIRED. apparently, most of us dozed off during the theory. hahahaah! today, when i took the test,i kinda wrote crap for the theory test.when mel,sonia and claudia busy studying the rule book in starbucks, i was busy snapping pictures and drinking happily.:) WHAT WAS I THINKING! when i dunno the question, i put a smiley face. is like wasting your time lah doing the test lah. at the same time, wasting money. oh gawdddddd. like i said, i didnt put my HEART AND SOUL in umpiring course coz i know i have no confidence neither consistency to last myself blowing the whistle for the whole game. i might as well choke down the whistle as i find VERY annoying to blow if there's SO MANY mistake occur. goshhhhh. anyway, 3 more days to go... and goodbye XINGXIAPORE :D.