THIS WEEK.
A fucked up week. why? coz i came across a fucked up situation. yes, i face the bloody music. it was hard. all this time i was wasting la. and it's taking me this long to know you. you=someone i dont even know. :( but i believe, everything will be ok. hopefully. i've been giving out chances everytime, but all you do is let me down. i cant take it sometimes. is like my whole world come crashing down again and again. i wish i could turn back time......but what is lack of me? wht does she have that i dont have? damn. is so hard to be okay sometimes, coz deep inside it hurts to know that a friend told me instead of you. fuck it! yes i can pretend to be ok, but you know im not.
i hate to be in this game. is like 2 girls falling for the same guy. i know i shouldnt have come btw you two in the first place. now, it became a drama. and i know deep inside she still loves you and i know how it feels to be hurt. i do care for her feelings.REALLY. i hope she's okay. gosh. i dont really know wht's happening now. i dnt know wht to do. now, i feel like crying over my stupidity. why am i so stupid? why why why?! urggggggggggggggggghhhh.
Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
decision: i couldnt trust you anymore.
whatever you wanna do, just do.
i don't wanna care more neither i wanna care less about you.
im just gonna be there for you but to listen to sorrows.
IN MY HEART, you're a lover, but in my mind, you're a stranger to me now.
so sorry.
